Freedom

I looked about, my eyes covered in scars.
The stains of mistakes imbedded in me.
I was shackled in chains, locked behind bars.
Longing only to one day be free.

I trudged through the clouds that hindered my sight.
The air poisoned with pain.
Never knowing if the path I was on was right,
I walked forward in vain.

Then up walked beside me,
A man, a young boy at heart.
He asked if I wanted to see.
If I wanted the chains to fall apart.

I wasn't sure what He meant,
For the concept was far too new.
To forgive the ones I resent,
Would not only free them, but free me too?

I longed to dance as I used to do,
When freedom was mine to wear.
To see the world without a tainted view.
To be rid of the painful despair.

I fell to my knees overwhelmed with fear,
And asked with my heart full of doubt,
"How do you forgive an ache so near?
I'm injured inside and out!"

He knelt down beside me and spoke to my face,
"You give to them what I gave,
A gift of grace.
It frees you from being a slave.

It's a process, not an event.
It will take you some time.
It's a daily constant ascent.
A rigid upward climb.

You have to be willing and ready to fight.
Your anguish won't just disappear.
The hurt wont vanish overnight.
You will have to face your fear.

And just when you can't take anymore swings,
I will be there fighting beside you.
I will shelter you in the shadow of my wings.
I will carry you through."

I Asked The Lord Today

I asked the Lord today, "Where is life's exclamation?
Why have I lost my motivation?"
He replied, "Because your spirit's experiencing dehydration,
And it's weakening your solid foundation."

And I was like "Oh."

Look

Look up at me. Watch me. Study me. Learn me. Know me.
Look at my scars. My pain. My hurt. My heart. My love.
I wrote a book for you, because I needed you to see,
That this world has nothing to offer without Me!

Watch me. Study me. Learn me. Know me.
Look at my pain. My hurt. My heart. My love.
The words on those pages are full of truth and life.
They are my proposal to you, my bride, my wife.

Study me. Learn me. Know me.
Look at my hurt. My heart. My love.
The holes in my hands are there for a reason.
To show you my love is forever, not just a season.

Learn me. Know me.
Look at my heart. My love.
I felt that weakness that you feel.
I was there. It was real.

Know me.
Look at my love.
I was battered, mocked, torn, bruised and beaten beyond repair.
While my friends and family could do nothing but stand and stare.
They didn't understand, just as you don't now,
But I wrote in my book, this solid vow:

I promise that when all is said and done,
My father will announce that He is pleased with His son.
Heaven will be opened, and there will be a way,
For all believing souls to come and eternally stay.

I promise to leave with you my Holy Spirit,
He will guide you if you silence yourself to hear it.
I will give to you a gift of peace so do not be afraid!
Because when this is over, the ultimate price will be paid.

So, look up at me. Watch me. Study me. Learn me. Know me.
Look at my scars. My pain. My hurt. My heart. My love.
It was done for you.
.

Here's the Truth

Okay, Listen, I've been angry today,
I'm sick of every door slamming in my face.
I'm tired of my brain being in such disarray.
I'm ready for one thing to fall in to place.

You said to be honest, here is my cry.
I'm tired of this mediocre lifestyle.
I want to spread my wings and fly.
I want to live a life worthwhile.

This asking and waiting has gone on too long.
I don't want to rest anymore.
If I wait I am lazy, if I move I am wrong.
I feel like a prisoner of war.

I'm ready to move please pave the way.
I want to feel alive.
I can't wait one more day,
To journey the plans that you contrive!

Sinking

      She stands silently staring intently into the reflection of her soul. She studies it's every feature. There's a flicker of light in her eyes. A flame so dim that could cast but only a shadow. She feels trapped. Her mind races, begging to escape. The prison is all too familiar. She's been there before.
     The picture held before her is merely a film of memory. Time she will never get back. Time that has slipped past to be captured frozen in front of her. She touches it if only to get through to the other side. If only to transport to another realm.
    She screams.
    "God help!"
    But only echoes remain.
   The image before her burns to an ash in the palm of her hand. Tears begin to bellow from within her heart. She looks around frantically as if to find an exit, but no doors remain; no windows; no life. Darkness caves in like an avalanche and envelopes her like water.
    She's sinking.
    She's drowning.
   Her lungs pulsate for air. They ache like a bleeding sore. Her prayers begin to take form of a bubble that rocket away from her. She reaches to catch them. She tries to hold on to the life that slowly starts to surface. She wants to reach the top. She wants to breathe.
   The flickering flame begins to ignite from beneath her. She scrambles around to try to swim to the bottom. She needs the light. She can't see.
   Her lungs scream for air. Her eyes cry for light. Her soul begs for answered prayers. She can but only travel in one direction, in which none hold life without the other.
   She clenches her fists in one last attempt to reengage. All her strength begins to dissipate. Slowly everything turns white. All is silent. All is still.
   Her heart...it beats. She hears the faint drum. That rhythm was all that she needed to persevere. The instrument that God plays within her body.

And she begins to float to the pace of the beat of God's time.

Who I Am

I'm not a toy, a trophy or a tool.
I am a rare gem, a diamond, a jewel.
I'm not a mat for you to wipe your feet,
Or a thermostat for you to yank up the heat.
I won't be defined by what's in my past.
I won't hide behind the shadow you cast.
I am my own person, creative, unique,
An elegant sculpture, a beautiful antique.
I am forgiven, washed clean from head to toe.
I use the faith that He let me borrow.
I am a compliment to the atmosphere.
I will not destroy who I see in the mirror.
I hold a secret weapon in my heart,
A bond so strong you can't pull us apart.
A power so mighty and divine,
A gift unwrapped that is solely mine.
This weapon I use will never fail.
It's the air I breathe, and the air I exhale.

My Child

Your hands are small compared to mine,
While you're wishing on stars, I'm making them shine.
Your eyes see clouds, mine see past,
Everything you do, I can surpass.
Why do you question as if I don't know?
You act like my presence is but a shadow.
I am the Way, the Truth and the Light,
Your flickering flame, I can ignite.
Open wide, I will fill you up.
Take this bread, drink the wine from my cup.
There's nothing else that can satisfy you more.
You're the one my heart yearns for.
My grace is sufficient for every mistake.
There's abundant comfort for every heartache.
Come, lean on me and I'll hold you strong.
In my kingdom is where you belong.